Hello Kristina... Welcome to Anxiety Zone! My name is Chuck, and I am one of the Global Moderators here on the site
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I just wanted to share with you a little food for thought.
I was started on Remeron some 4-5 years ago. I was on 30 mg. Last Summer, I started having breakthrough panic attacks, and by the Fall, my 24/7 anxiety had returned. My psychiatrist increased the Remeron to 45 mg, but it had no effect. The Remeron had stopped working for me. Of all the anti-depressants, Remeron has the highest rate of "pooping-out", for individuals; it just stops working. My psychiatrist started me on Celexa (Citalopram), 20 mg, and I am doing well on that medication.
I don't think that you were having an adverse reaction to the Cymbalta. When starting a new anti-depressant, serotonin levels are immediately increased. This can cause a variety of temporary side effects. When I started the Celexa, my anxiety went through the roof, and I too had all kinds of negative thoughts. After 2-3 weeks of taking the Celexa, the side effects almost completely disappeared. I have been on the Celexa for some 5 months now, and I would say I am doing 90% better.
Again Kristina, welcome to Anxiety Zone. The very best to you!... Chuck