I try to tell myself it's "just anxiety," but deep down I don't actually believe it. I legitimately think I have something wrong with me.
Ever since an acquaintance of mine passed last month after a 6-month long battle with gastrointestinal cancer (he was only 24), I can't get it off my mind. I've been feeling random abdominal pains, I feel a painful lump under my left leg, my throat is ridiculously sore and has been for an extended period of time...and I can't help but think that each of these symptoms points to one cancer or another.
Before when I had cancer fears I was able to manage it with "well, statistically..." and think about how rare it is in general, much less for my age group. But when someone you know gets, all that stuff about it being rare pretty much goes out the window.
Is there anyone here who has overcome this fear? It's to the point where it's actually difficult for me to sleep because my thoughts are always racing. I just want to be a carefree 25 year-old and LIVE but it's hard to do when you've already resigned yourself to an early death.