Hi everyone, so last night at 3am I ended up calling for medical help because I was absolutely convinced I was dying and having a heart attack
I'm stuck in this cycle and it's driving me nuts!
Basically, I have paroxysmal atrial fibrillation, which isn't too bad. It just goes out of rhythm every now and then. Recently I've been laying in bed and getting heart flutters or feelings that it is missing a beat. As soon as it happens, I break out into a cold sweat, my throat gets tight and my palms start dripping. Last night the pain was so bad that it went into my neck, arms and chest so I called for help. Luckily, the paramedics were very, very cool about it all and were incredibly understanding and kept me in the ambulance for an hour or so to reassure me. I felt like such an idiot.
I keep telling myself "It's just panic, you're fine" but nothing makes it get any better. I try and calm myself down but it doesn't seem to work. I suffer with cardiophobia terribly, I think this is because of my pre-existing heart thing but I don't really know. It all started after I got a terrible panic attack when I was smoking pot (I would use it all day every day for a year) and I knew then that it was time to quit.
I hate wasting the medic's time but when I get in that zone I feel so desperately that I'm going to die and I need help.
How do I break this cycle? I also am meant to be having an MRI scan on my heart soon as the doc noticed something on my chest X-ray that looked a little odd. So I guess that's perpetuating my anxiety at the minute too..
Please, anyone, help me? I want to know that this will end, it's ruining my life and I'm getting incredibly depressed.
Thank you for reading