I'm trying to figure out what this is, it was happening every once in awhile, but now it seems to be more often.
I'll be asleep (I think) and bam an intrusive thought pops into my head, almost like I can see the words and my eyes snap open.
It's like all day and night, I try to avoid these thoughts and even counter them and then when my brain is the most vulnerable, the thoughts come in.
I hope I'm explaining this correctly. Without using my words or thoughts (still working towards that), say I feared killing my husband. So all day long, I think I'll never kill my husband. I would never kill my husband. And then while I'm asleep, I think/see the exact words "You're gonna kill your husband" and my eyes snap open.
Then these thoughts cause anxiety all day long. It's bad enough when I have the thoughts when I'm up and about, but this is awful.