Hi, obviously from the post count I'm new here. Last October I started dating this amazing girl. She was my first girlfriend and I'm 23 so that is sort of odd, I know. She is an absolutely fantastic woman. I truly do love her, but not long into the relationship I started to question EVERYTHING. (I've had a similar problem before, not about a relationship, so I'm now seeing a therapist but it's only gotten worse.) Basically I constantly questioned when I should love her, did I love her, was she the right one for me, did we have enough in common, etc. to the point where it got debilitating for both of us. We had almost broken up for another reason a month or so ago, and it hit me like a ton of bricks how much I really loved her. Yet 2 days later I went back to questioning.
And now she broke up with me this past Thursday. She didn't want to break up with me, but she felt the only way I could fix myself was to work on myself without her there. I cried a ton over the past few days, and everything I saw or heard made me miss her. This morning she texted me and said how much she missed me, and I agreed how much I missed her too, but we couldn't be together till I worked on myself. And then a little bit after I started to question if I really missed her that much and now I just feel hollow. It makes no sense. I refuse to believe everything I have felt for her was a sham. I just don't understand why I can't stop questioning my feelings. And I hate what it does to her.
Has anyone else ever went through anything similar?