So im rather new to this forum and I havent posted much, but i have a really big fear of going out and having a panic attack. i get very nervous when i go out and i feel like i cant do anything.
i wanna go out and hang out with this girl i really like and idk what to do. this just isnt about her it goes for everything. i dont like going anywhere but my therapist and i dont even go to work. i know this girl likes me and she slowely losing interest because i always have an excuse for not going out and we dont talk to much. idk what to do, i feel like i cant even go out and hang with my friends because im fearful of becoming that nervous in public and i dont want anyone to see me freaking out in public. i dont want to even have the feeling like im gonna have an attack so i avoid going out. like this sucks idk what to do. everyone is telling me just dont worry about it go out and just do it. how can i just do it if im too afraid to have a panic attack. i hate it SO MUCH that im just staying inside. i dont want to mess things up with this girl and i was supposed to take her out tonight, but i bailed because of my anxiety. im on zoloft 25 mg for a week now and i do feel as if its helping my anxiety and depression but i still dont want to go out. would something like xanax or klonipen help me be able to go out and be normal for at least a few hours??? again this isnt all about this girl, im too afraid to go to work, go to the store, hang with my friend that ive chilled with for like 3 years now, idk what to do. i just want my normal life back, i want to be able to have a relationship, but i dont want to tell her i have anxiety this bad cuz we've only know each other for like two weeks now and i feel like im just gonna mess it up and be alone forever and stuck inside...anyone have any tips at all, i really want to be normal again. im not good with the whole exposure therapy thing so medication and my therapy will help the most.
excuse my bad spelling please.