Grasping the sheets, sweating profusely
Waking up turns out to be fruitless.
Gatherings bring me down to the dirty
Low lying reaches that my brain conceives.
My mind running down every could be moment,
The "what if fears" have taken over.
Muster what courage my SA allows,
I push myself into the crowds.
Heart clenching fear, my memory escapes me.
Lips start to fumble,I'm losing control.
Panic has bitten, frozen, I'm drone.
All I want now is to go home.
When the sun finally sets over my horizon,
I find relief thinking, "I made it to here."
Can't justify why I keep living in fear,
Yet rational thoughts are never too near.
Just as I've given up, my senses exhausted,
I crawl into bed waiting on tears.
Hoping for moments of peace in my slumber,
Finding out, only, I hit replay instead.
Sorry, I know this isn't the section for poems but it's geared towards SA specifically.