I've been going to therapy and meditating and trying to deal with my anxiety disorder/depression, my outlook on life is changes but sometimes I wonder if my new behavior is indicative of my personality reacting to therapy, or if I have a brain tumor that is causing strange behavior (and that maybe a brain tumor caused the anxiety in the first place).
For instance now that I'm not so stressed, or I have windows of time that aren't clouded in anxiety, I feel like I want to say things that I've never wanted to say before. Like the way I converse with others has changed, now I say weird things. I think people have noticed that I'm much weirder than I used to be. Sometimes I text my friends just to say "good morning" because I miss them.
Also today I was writing a paper, and I vowed to start writing the final page at 10 p.m. and finish by the end of the hour. For some reason, my brain processed the information weirdly and I thought that if I started the paper at 10, I would be able to finish the paper by 10...doesn't make sense.
Does this sound odd to you? I fear that my brain tumor anxieties are stifling my progress in therapy, that I'm hesitant to even continue with treating my anxiety/depression. It's like the better I start to feel, the worse my brain tumor fears come back and give me anxiety attacks. Any advice?