Hello and thank you for reading this. I really hope someone can offer me friendly advice because I don't know that to do.
Well, most of my anxious thoughts of the past few days have been directed at the one thing that's the most important to me... my relationship. I love my boyfriend, I know that I do. I know that I am physically, sexually and emotionally attracted to him & I've NEVER had a doubt in my mind about him. I can go on and on about how he's the perfect boyfriend. But the last few days I've been suffocated by these anxious, stressed out thoughts about our relationship. They make my stomach turn and fill me with guilt & sadness. After each horrid thought, I think about my life without him and I break down into endless sadness. I feel so guilty all the time for even thinking these. I want him more than anything, why is my mind doing this to me? I want these thought to go away. It hurts so bad yet I cant stop thinking about it. My heart wants one thing, but my mind is killing me and I want it to end before my relationship suffers.
Reader, has this ever happened to you? When you KNOW your feelings, you KNOW what you want but all these negative thoughts fill you with horror, guilt, sadness and doubt? What do you do about it? I can't live with this feeling, and I need my boyfriend in my life. I need help.