I've been a bit panicky the past few days and I recognized that as anxiety, but today I feel a bit different. I feel like everything is too much for me and there's a pressure building up inside of me and I'm going to completely flip out at any second. I can't settle. You could kind of say I feel suicidal but I don't want to die, I just feel so on edge and not myself that I feel like I would just 0473 or smash my entire house up. I feel dangerous almost. I don't want to feel like this because I'm not a bad person and I don't want to make a mess or hurt anyone. No one can help me though. I told my mum (I'm 19 and live at home with her and my siblings) and it's not her fault but there's literally nothing she can do. She just looked at me really sadly because she knows I'm struggling. She said she'll call my support worker tomorrow but I don't think anything will come of that as he already said a few weeks ago, I'm on the list to get my medication reviewed but it will take months for a free slot to come up, possibly. I'm just so scared I'm going to flip out. I feel manic. How do I make this go away?
I'm diagnosed with OCD, GAD, agoraphobia and depression but I feel almost Schizophrenic right now.