Alas, I have a new obsession and this has to deal with the sociopathic personally. I started to question my sanity when my English teacher was talking about sociopaths in class. Every since then I have been re-analyzing everything that has happened in my life and it's regard to sociopathic personally.
Here are asked examples:
I have read that sociopaths don't feel any sympathy for people, so every time that I see something sad or that some hard thing that has happened to someone-I try to feel for them to prove that I'm not one of those people (I do feel emotions here)
Another one is where if I feel guilty or not.
Well when I went upstairs without cleaning up, my mother said something along the lines of cleaning this mess up all by herself. I did not feel really guilty about this but only slightly, which concerned me a little bit. But rather I felt like it was my moral right to go back down stairs in order to help her.
I read that sociopaths hurt animals so, when I was kid had a cringing fear of ants. So I got the hose and almost wiped out the colony. Looking back on that it probably wasn't the smartest idea. But I would never hurt my dogs that I have.
I have had crushes on girls before and I really want to love and care for someone, but I feel like this fear making me think other wise.
I get violent thoughts from time to time which kind of bothers me but I try to ignore them instead of suppressing them.
I also read that they admire a nicly executed crime. So I was watching this bank robbery movie and I was thinking to my self "Dang these guys must be professionals in the way it was executed" which alarmed me a little bit. I also try to praise the good guy as much as possible.
I don't know if this would count as compulsive lying but I sometimes talk about experiences or events that hadn't happen to my friends so that I can sound more interesting. I rarely do this, and only with the people whom I want some respect from. To combat this i try to be as honest as possible now.
Lastly, I read that sociopaths are generally intelligent individuals, and I think I am a pretty intellectual human being.
I think that is all that I can possibly think about now, there might be more but I can't think of them now . So what do you guys think?