Welcome to the board Jaded,
Anxiety is a nasty thing and it's hard to talk to people. I hear you out on that completely. I've closed myself out of all my friends, deleted my social networks and changed my phone numbers... I'm going to college but I just have no interest in hanging out with people right now...
I've been diagnosed with Social Anxiety and i've struggled a hard time with worry and repercussions, even though I have nothing to fear, I'm fighting this ongoing battle and I feel like I'm at my worst as well.
It's awesome that you joined to find people to talk to, because we all have the same/similar situations and nothing feels better than talking to those who understand you and who aren't going to tell you to "just stop worrying" "or suck it up". it's because they don't understand. It's your own personal feelings that are taken into effect and you're entitled to your own feelings and emotions. This place will loosen up a lot of your venting space you have built up. Feel free to bounce around.
Are you going to school right now?
I'm sorry to hear about the panic attacks. I had my first panic attack ever on the 15th (day after valentines day) out of nowhere.... 2 more the day after and yesterday I had one that lasted over an hour... just lying there feeling horrible.
A lot of this has been because of my body adjusting to my new medication but right now I'm feeling pretty calm.
Right now I'm on 50mg Zoloft and .5mg Klonopin 2x a day. This is the first time ever taking medication.
It's been rough.
Are you taking any medication or therapy? maybe even some self help things?
If you ever feel like chatting join our chat room, it's a lot of fun and it's easy to get involved, we are completely goofy sometimes and we are a pretty gentle crowd.
Post around, I enjoyed your reading your post, if you need anything let me know.
Welcome to the board.