Hi, I'm new to the forum and after looking through other older posts, I thought I'd make one specific to my situation (which most likely isn't as bad as I think it is). I'm basically just looking for some reassurance that everything is gonna be all right. I'm 16 years old if that's relevant. Ok, so here goes...
I was left alone in the house last friday (usually I'm okay with this) and after my parents were gone for a little while longer than I thought they were, I kind of started feeling pretty nervous. So I played with our cats to take my mind off things, and I noticed a tiny little bit of saliva in the corner of one of their mouths, so naturally I completely freaked out and did the stupidest thing possible. Look up symptoms of rabies. Hoo boy. I was already in somewhat of a fragile mental state (pathetic, I know) and this completely freaked me. After seeing a video showing rabies in a human - which I won't link for obvious reasons - I was in a complete mess.
I tried to eat tea that night, but I couldn't; probably due to the anxiety. Then, the next morning (after roughly 2 hours sleep - spent most of night bent over bed shaking), I stomached a few brazil nuts and then went out to help my mum at her cleaning job, and my mind was mostly off everything at that point. In the afternoon I had a fairly large slice of tortilla, and then couldn't manage to eat anything before going to bed. So a total of probably 500 calories maximum. I then had a good night's sleep on saturday night and woke up feeling relatively good about everything. However, eating was still a challenge with a tiny amount of curry and a mcDonald's being all I ate for the day. Oh, and I got bitten by one of our cats (we've just bought a particularly unpredictable siamese), which sent my anxiety haywire and we spent most of the evening in the emergency unit worrying about tetanus as my shots aren't up to date. Although, the doc said that it wasn't a deep enough cut to warrant it (I will have one at some point this week anyway, to stay up to date).
So, I then had another almost sleepless night, and today I feel absolutely horrible. I'm really
hungry, but the idea of eating food makes me want to heave. I managed a tiny amount of cereal this morning and some soup for lunch, but I'm worried about how much damage I'm doing to my body by not eating enough. How long will it take before it really does damage me in some way? My mum made me a vegetable juice (for the vitamins - she's really great), but just trying to drink it makes me want to throw it back up, although I can swallow tiny amounts. But, it is reminding me of seeing the video of that rabies patient who couldn't drink liquids and I'm now terrified and shaking all over. Please help me - in any way possible, I will be grateful
Oh, and rabies is eradicated in the UK. So, my chances are one in goodness knows how many million of getting it. But, this isn't making a difference for my anxiety about it. I'll try and drink some plain water now. (When I've psyched myself up. I'm afraid of being afraid of water. Hmm, I think I need some sort of treatment soon, but that's not the point right now).