I am new to the forums, but old hand at the anxiety game, unfortunately. I have been dealing with GAD, panic attacks and agoraphobia on and off for over 20 years. Some of the things I have read here have touched me and made me feel a little less alone in this struggle. I am very grateful for that.
I seem to go through periods of severe anxiety and depression. I have been in therapy on and off for well over 20 years - sometimes I feel like it helps and other times, not so much.
I suffered a pretty bad panic attack last week (had been experiencing anxiety for past month or so). It lasted for over an hour and I took Klonopin - as prescribed - and eventually fell asleep. I try the deep breathing techniques, the positive self-talk, but sometimes it just doesn't get through in that moment. I do not like medication (have been on Lexapro 20mgs for 3 years), but have used Klonopin PRN, usually at night as it makes me too groggy during the day. I have little faith in it and, after this last attack, found it useless.
I have had a support system in place for the past several years - therapist, pdoc, etc. Feel like I have tried the breathing techniques, CBT - with no relief. What am I doing wrong?!? Saw the therapist this week - I seem to be hung up on what triggers these events and her theory is that the trigger isn't important - as I do understand sometimes there isn't a trigger. I feel if I understand the trigger, then I can deal with it. Needless to say, it was not a helpful session. Have literally been anxious all week - ebbing and flowing - struggling to get to work in the morning. Usually once there, I begin to feel better, but that hasn't been the case this week and the week ended feeling worse than ever. Avoiding going other places.
I called pdoc - she was on vacation, so I spoke with someone else, who feels this is somehow hormonally related/triggered. She decreased Lexapro to 10mg, added Abilify 2mg and changed me to Xanax PRN. As most with anxiety, am petrified to change or try new meds and certainly don't want to become addicted to Xanax. So desperate for some relief, I tried Xanax yesterday and was cautiously optimistic - felt better than I had all week, but am still afraid the panic will break through. Actually started the Abilify this morning - spent the day in bed mostly, just paralyzed with fear about the fear.
A few questions, when going through several days of continuous anxiety, is it normal to have to try to "break" the cycle before feeling better? Is the anxiety feeding off itself and just creating more anxiety? Does that constant adrenalin surge have to be calmed before I feel better? Will the Xanax help with this? Does anyone else go through days and days of anxiety - feeling like you want to run or just crawl out of your skin? I can't remember this never-ending anxiety, but I'm sure it's been there before - just having a hard time focusing right now.
Also, anyone have any good experiences with Abilify? Please, no negative experiences...can't cope with that right now.
So sorry to dump this - but really need something to hang on to right now...please give me some hope.