First off, I have suffered from health anxiety since I could walk. I remember bouts of depression and terror from my earliest memories. In recent years, professional and married life has helped me to keep my mind on other things, but every now and then it returns suddenly and with a heavy hand. The last week has been overwhelming.
I recently discovered a change in a mole on my shoulder. It has always been there, a very dark mole, but last week I noticed it somehow. It just seemed different. Or at least it grabbed my attention and hadn't before. It had changed from a simple round spot to a slightly oval shape with some change of color here and there. Like the mole was spreading. It started out as a 2mm mole and at the time I noticed it, was 2.5mm x 4mm. Small by textbook guidelines. I only wish that I had noticed it earlier. So, 6 days later, the mole has been removed. I went in to see the dermatologist and he looked at it for about 10 seconds and said, "Yeah, it looks different. Let's just get rid of that one right now. I will send it off to look for pathology and will get back to you soon." I heard that as, "I will call you next week to let you know if you have melanoma or not."
He used a shave excision to remove it and the procedure was totally painless.
I am waiting now for the biopsy results and I am sweating bullets. I have a massively stressful life and I simply don't have space in my mind for more worry, but I am somehow managing to squeeze a bit more in there.
Anyone have a similar experience? I could strongly use some words of encouragement and wisdom right now.