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Offline Gomubukai

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I've come to a decision
« on: February 15, 2014, 09:09:06 PM »
Hi everyone

After reading a certain topic on here this morning - I've had a lot of trouble not thinking about it. I've been questioning myself and my own symptoms and wondering if they could be related to what I read this morning. Even though that particular topic has never been a fear of mine and I've never thought about the symptoms before. It's caused me to almost go into a new cycle of uncertainty, but before I let that happen again I've come to a decision...

I've been spending a lot of time on here lately, sometimes asking questions of my own - but mostly trying to help reassure others and its gotten to the point where I've learned things about health that, as a hypochondriac, I probably shouldn't know.

A lot of the fears that I've had over the past year and a half - MS, ALS, Kidney failure, memory problems etc etc etc ETC. I have learned the symptoms of on this board. I've had health anxiety for the best part of 15 years, even though it was only in the past few years I realised what it was. It isn't worth the drama anymore. I want to get over this once and for all and I don't want to learn anything more about which symptoms could mean which disease.

I'm over it. It's time to change.

The only way for me to do that (for any of us to do that) is to change my attitude and the way I deal with my thoughts, fears and uncertainties.

I realised it isn't good for me to be spending so much time thinking about my, and other people's health and coming on here reading about symptoms and the fears people have which, as you all know can be contagious.

It made me realise. I need to take a step back and stop coming on here for a while. I will try to stop thinking about health altogether and try to just live for a bit.

The main reason I've been coming on here is to try and find the rare but valuable nuggets of info people sometimes put up to help others overcome their fears. But those have been few and far between lately and sometimes coming on here can do more harm to my progress than good.

I'm sure I will probably be back at the first sign of my next fear, but for now I'm going to take some time off to get a little perspective.

Do I WANT to have health anxiety forever? No, I don't.

So I should stop making it such a huge part of my life. I should stop coming on here altogether for a while and see if I can get over this plateau I've been stuck on. And remove the option of running to this board at the first sign of a symptom and just break the reassurance cycle completely.

Sorry for the rant - I just thought maybe this might help someone is some way :)

I wish you all great health and peace of mind :)
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« Reply #1 on: February 15, 2014, 09:18:44 PM »
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #2 on: February 15, 2014, 09:24:09 PM »
I can totally relate to this. I like coming here and trying to help others, and get help if I need it. But it also keeps me in the mode, or the cycle if you will, of thinking about health all the time. I think your decision was well thought out and is a good one. I hope it works for you.  :happy0151:
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« Reply #3 on: February 15, 2014, 09:40:23 PM »
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #4 on: February 15, 2014, 09:45:35 PM »
I specifically haven't mentioned on here what the catalyst of my decision was.

It would be a pretty foolish thing to do really.

Needless to day I've been thinking about tskih a break from the site for a while.
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #5 on: February 15, 2014, 09:52:56 PM »
best of luck to you gombukai!
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« Reply #6 on: February 15, 2014, 09:57:59 PM »
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #7 on: February 15, 2014, 10:04:25 PM »
@ceh - thanks a lot! :) it took some soul searching but I think I finally realised why I am stuck at this point in my 'recovery' - hopefully this gives me a boost towards being a fully functioning member of society again haha :)

@ancientmelody - thanks I really think its a good move for my own well being :)

@ineedtosmile - just a friendly reminder that it took me a very long time to write all of that down and I really don't want this thread to be removed. I know you're not trying to cause harm, but please consider that this board is a health anxiety board and that post was removed for a reason.
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« Reply #8 on: February 15, 2014, 10:05:28 PM »
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« Reply #9 on: February 15, 2014, 10:10:55 PM »
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #10 on: February 15, 2014, 11:09:13 PM »
But that's his own situation, This is an Anxiety forum.

Honestly I don't think one should single someone out, Just like one wouldn't want to be told that "their anxiety doesn't exist"

But maybe that's just me.

Shouldn't really try and narrow it down to a person.
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #11 on: February 15, 2014, 11:12:57 PM »
I'm not sure what you mean, potatoes?
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« Reply #12 on: February 15, 2014, 11:20:04 PM »
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« Reply #13 on: February 15, 2014, 11:20:28 PM »
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Re: I've come to a decision
« Reply #14 on: February 15, 2014, 11:25:53 PM »
Guys... Please.

All I wanted was for people to read my post and realise that it's not healthy for all of us to be thinking about health etc all thr time

I know it's not good for me so I'm going to take a break from the site.

I'm not mentioning anyone specifically in the reasons behind why I'm taking a break from the site as it isn't specifically one person that is making me make this decision. Well one person BESIDES me :)

This is something I'm doing for myself and posted this purely because I thought its so easy to get caught up in the cycle of reassurance it might help others get some perspective.

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