Hi there. I'm a 37 year old male happily married with 2 adorable little tots, but I have suffered from GAD for almost 8 years now. It has been well controlled by medication, but occasionally I'm hit with anxiety related to sleep. I seriously have a phobia of not getting enough sleep which in turn sometimes leads to me having anxiety when I try to sleep. Usually 1 or 2 Xanax will help me out, but last night it didn't at all.
See, this week my family and I are headed on a vacation ski trip to Colorado. Tickets are purchased, and the entire vacation plan is paid for. I am super excited about going, as we all are.
But that's not my issue. For the past few weeks since we booked it, I began to put a little pressure on me getting a good night sleep prior to the trip. If I don't get that good sleep, especially prior to the trip, I am going to ruin it for me and for my entire family. I have to sleep well leading up to it, or it's going to be a disaster. And that is where the anxiety hits me. Last night, I was up till probably 3 despite 1.5 MG of Xanax. I got just a couple of hours of sleep, and I have 3 more nights until the plane right.
I absolutely HATE this about myself. Losing sleep to me because I am excited about a trip maybe the night before seems totally legit. But losing sleep 4 days prior because I have put pressure on myself to sleep is just plain dumb. My wife doesn't understand why I do this, but it's not something I can help. I have go get therapy but every therapist I get recommended doesn't take my insurance. Eventually I will find someone, but for now I've got to just keep trodding along getting insufficient sleep until I actually make it out to Colorado, where I will probably sleep like a baby once I am there.
Does anyone else have this ridiculous fear of not sleeping enough?