I'm having anxiety again, I'm TERRIFIED, suddenly afraid that I could have PCOS and will get diabetes. Can someone please help me?
I have some light blonde hairs in an area near my chin on my jaw line. I think they would be all over or darker though if it was PCOS? I have always had two moles with a few hairs on them on my cheeks. I have a few scattered hairs on my breasts, but none near/around my nipples. I do, though, have some thicker dark hair on my lower abdomen. I'm FREAKING out that I have PCOS.
Background - I had an eating disorder from age 13-16 and have always had disordered thoughts and behaviors. I'm around 170lbs now and 26 but I still have periods of anxiety where I don't eat until late, and lightly, to deal with my anxiety, trying not to re-trigger my ED. So the idea of having insulin sensitivity or diabetes makes me just want to die, because of my eating disorder past/disordered eating/distorted body image. And I can't handle doctor's visits because of anxiety over ED like stuff.
I DO HAVE normal periods, exact to the date they should come, they last 3 days of bleeding and then stop over the next day or two. And my abdominal hair hasn't gotten noticeably thicker over the last say... 7 or 8 years.
So - does it sound like I have PCOS? I'm freaking out so bad
I know that lots of people have it and live normal lives but my anxiety over even having the insulin sensitivity is just sky high. (I tested my own blood sugar, fasting I think, a while ago because of unrelated health anxiety and it was normal then. I know that's not a guarantee, it's insulin levels, but that glucose can be an indicator). It's the dark hair on my lower abdomen that is freaking me out (and I guess my weight, but I've been around this weight for like... basically right after I recovered from my ED, where I weighed 100lbs, I'm 5'4"). Is darker lower abdominal hair normal or is it ALWAYS PCOS? :/
Okay, enough background info, I'm just so scared and I'm rambling