After 2 years of doctors, psychiatrist, and medications, they are telling us that my niece might have Schizophrenia.
You do not have it....believe me.
Like one of the above posters stated, you wouldn't be questioning if you have it if you actually had it.
You could be Bi-Polar, though.
There is a Bi-Polar 1 and a Bi-Polar 2.....and with one of them you hear voices and even hallucinate.
And me, myself, am afraid to tell people everything that's in my head, too.
I swear that I would be locked up....
As a matter of fact, I made a video about these thoughts and our (anxiety sufferers) fear of having a horrible mental illness, about a week ago, that I was supposed to post on my Youtube Channel (Living with Health Anxiety)...but I chickened out.
I'm thinking of forcing myself to post it anyway because I think it would help people like you and me to know that they are not crazy or alone....
But, I have had the issues with talking myself into believing that people are mad at me, hate me, think I'm disgusting, etc.
I also have heard voices, talked out loud to myself without realizing it (conversations), had the most horrifying and terrible thoughts (like randomly thinking of stabbing a stranger on the street), and have even had hallucinations....many, many hallucinations.
....I would never actually do any of the awful things that pop in my head....but they still pop in there.
And, they seem to come around more often and get worse when I'm under a great deal of stress.
Most of my uncles, aunts, and cousins all have the same issues as me when they are under a lot of stress and they are all normal everyday awesome people.
About two months ago one of my uncles sent me a message because he was under a lot of stress and had been seeing "demons" and hearing voices.
Whenever we are under high amounts of stress we will begin to see shadows, hear noises, hear voices, etc.
But, I think it is our minds way of handling stress and because of our crazy imaginations it turns into these things.
I remember calling my sister at like 2:00am one time because I was lying in my bed in complete darkness, totally convinced that there was something in my closet and I wanted to get up to close the closet door so that I would feel better but I was seriously convinced that there was something under my bed waiting to grab my legs as soon as I put my feet on the floor. Then, as my room was at the top of the stairs, I swore the “Grudge Girl” was sliding up the stairs at that very moment, lol. I laugh at myself, but it was terrifying at the time. I wanted to just cry....plus, I couldn't get out of the extreme fear I was feeling. And I was already 30 years old when this happened, lol.
But, even more recently, I was going through a whole lot of extreme stress and anxiety and I was lying in my bed and noticed that I was seeing shadow figures again. And I even saw this huge demon looking creature with long arms and claws walk slowly by my door.
I quickly closed my eyes and I wouldn’t open them again because I thought it would be closer to me..…I just ended up falling asleep.
I know that it’s all in my head, that it’s not real and that it happens when I’m under a great deal of stress. So, basically, I have learned to deal with it, ignore it, or control it. It really doesn’t bother me as much anymore because I know what it is, what’s causing it, and that it will go away.
But, that's how I know that I don't have a serious mental illness.....I can control it.
You will be fine...you're just depressed.....