Holly, I feel where you're at.
The med thing--ativan is only a temporary fix. An SSRI, if your doc thinks it's right, really just gets your mind to a calm place where you can really do the "work" in therapy, does that make sense? The med doesn't make the anxiety go away, but for me, it gave me the positive switch I needed to really get in there during therapy and work on myself. So I"d definitely at least consider it.
Ugh, I was JUST in the store and felt not fully dizzy but pass outish. I hate that! And i"M like "what's wrong?" but nothing I don't think. I think it was just being in that store and all the stimulus...I breathed and gave myself permission to shop and did that. Then I left, because that store does make me anxious. But since doing meds and therapy for numerous years, it's so much btter--it's to the point where a strange sensation doesn't ruin me. I'm praying you get to the same positive place:) xoxo