I have been dealing with anxiety and depression since I was 15 years old and I am now 30 and have two beautiful kids and a boyfriend that loves and cares about me but there's one problem, and that problem is me. We have been together almost two years and have been living together for almost a year. My kids and I made a big move from our hometown, we have never lived anywhere else and ended up moving pretty far away from our home state. I tend to blame myself for a lot. My failed relationship with my kid's dad, the fussing and arguing with my boyfriend, I'll get so down and thin that I deserve every bit of anything negative that I have received which frustrates my boyfriend and sends me into attack mode. He has been doing some research because this is all new to him and I told him that if I understood it I would try to help but I don't know what my triggers are. I believe I am going to try to keep a journal and see if maybe I can find it that way?? Does anyone e have any suggestions or advice?