I am male, 48 years old. I have read a lot here and came across a post that sounds like me so I thought I should join the site.
Just before Christmas I noticed that I had lost 4 or 5 pounds. So I started searching for unexplained weight loss and I guess you can imagine what it found.
So my mind went in to panic mode and I started searching every type of cancer and symptoms known.
I had no other symptoms so I went with the few that do not show symptoms early. I convinced myself that I had colon cancer.
But one thing that I had not considered was that I used to stay up late at night and would eat whatever was left over from supper/diner and if there was nothing left I would eat something else like a few p & j sandwiches. I was eating from 350 to over 500 calories late at night.
In early November we had someone start doing some work on our house and he worked 7 days a week until just after Christmas. So I started to going to bed earlier so that I could try and help as much as I could. By going to bed early I was no longer eating all of does calories. I calculated the amount of calories that I had taken away by the amount of weeks and it came up to weight that I had lost.
So there I had my answer to my weight loss. But my mind was already set and in panic mode so even though I knew why I lost weight I was still worried.
After a few weeks I told my wife that I would rather gain the weight back than to keep worrying like that so I added 500 calories a day above what I was eating. After a week I gained a pound and then 2 pounds then after about 2 and half pounds it level of. I am not gaining anymore but I am not losing. I think it may be that I reached a weight where it takes some of the extra calories to maintain my weight.
I finally reached a point that I was able to convince myself that I did not have colon cancer.
But by this time I was worrying about every little ache and pain that I felt.
So just about the time that I convinced my self that I did not have colon cancer I noticed that my left hip was aching one morning but stopped after I walked around for little while.
So I Googled it and found the symptoms of bursitis. I remembered that I had slept on that side all night. So the next night I slept on my right side and sure as anything I woke up with my right hip doing the same thing. So the next 2 nights I slept flat on my back. after the second night I had a pain in my lower back kind of left. This new pain I had felt before years ago when I was lifting weights in a gym and lifted to much in a squat and hurt my back in that same spot.
The lower back pain went away after I started to rotating sides when I sleep.
So during my research on hip pain I found that prostate cancer could spread to the hips.
I went in to panic again so much that I was convinced that I had prostate cancer that had spread and that I would surly die.
After more research and no other symptoms I convinced myself that I did not have prostate cancer.
That was this past week.
On Jan. 28 when I had my night time bowel movement it was constipation.
On Jan. 29 I also had constipation in the morning and after lunch but was better by night time.
That night when I had my night time bowel movement I noticed two small spots of blood red on the toilet paper so I looked in the commode and I saw a small drop there close to my stool.
On Jan. 30 I got up and had my morning bowel movement there was no blood on the toilet paper but there was a small spot on the side of my stool.
I didn't have a after lunch movement but the night movement seemed to be back to normal and not a sign of blood.
Jan. 31 Stool was fine this morning but after lunch I felt a little like I had to go but when I tried it was mostly gas. I set there and waited and finally strained enough to get a little to come out.
It was 3 or 4 small pieces and small in diamiter and I found one tiny spot of blood on one piece.
i worried all night long last night.
this morning I got up and had my morning bowel movement and everything seemed normal. The size was right it was a little soft but well formed ( my stools have always been soft in the mornings for some reason). I checked every inch of it with my flashlight and screwdriver and there was no blood but there was a few bits of what looked like carrots. I know there were small pieces of carrots in the chicken pot pies that we had for dinner last night.
I came here today because I was searching about carrots in stools and came across a post where someone said that they inspect their stool and even keep a flashlight in the bathroom for checking it. When I read that it sounded just like me so I joined the site then.
Back the first time I worried about colon cancer about a month ago I started to checking all of my stools with a flashlight and screwdriver.
Now my mind has me back in panic mode about colon cancer.
Colon cancer does not run in my family on either side nor does prostate cancer. I know that the say that colon cancer comes mostly after 50 and mainly in the 60's and 70's but my mind will not let go.
By the way I should also mention that I have tourette syndrome so I don't know if that may have something to do with my mind thinking these things.
I am not afraid of dieing as much as I am of leaving my wife and my only child (16 year boy) here to make do on their on.
My wish and prayer is that I live long enough to raise my son to manhood and he with a family of his own.
Sorry if this was so long but I wanted to tell my story.
i forgot to mention that since all of this started around Dec. 20 I have done nothing except get up read on Google try to watch TV read more on Google and go to bed.
I guess all of that sitting may be the reason for the bursitis symptoms.
Also early this week I started having pains in my mid back and some times around my right shoulder balde.
Some times it feels like a catch and some times it feels like burning muscles. I wonder if my not doing anything could my muscles in my back have gotton weak? I started a few nights ago doing some stretches and it seems to have eased up some. It happens mostly when I sit a long time like after I typed this post. Also some times I can move a certain way when it is hurting and it will pop between my back bone and shoulder blade and it feels better then.
i should also mention that I took ibuprofen for about 8 days for the bursitis symptoms then I read last night that ibuprofen may cause soem problems so I stopped taking them last night. I was taking two 200 mg in the morning then two 200 mg at night.