Hi, I'm new here. I have a lot of symptoms of anxiety which I'm beginning to attend therapy for. With the new semester, my panic attacks have been debilitating and I'm feeling really alone.
Besides the symptoms I know are anxiety (headaches, loss of appetite + weight loss, depersonalization), I have a few other symptoms that I was hoping others with anxiety could help me with. Trying to tell normal people about these symptoms, and googling them/asking about them on non-anxiety websites, has spiraled me into a panic attack right now, because everyone always says vague things like, "maybe you should go to a doctor" or, "that sounds weird/not normal," which is the worst thing you can say to someone with anxiety. I'm honestly getting frustrated. It's like as soon as I convince myself I'm worried over nothing, I google a symptom and someone says, "I had that exact symptom and now I have cancer."
So, are these symptoms normal, from the perspective of others with anxiety, or are they concerning even to those with anxiety?
First, deja vu. I seem to get deja vu more frequently than what used to be normal for me, before the anxiety (which started a year and a half ago). It's a very subtle deja vu, that sort of lingers throughout the day, some days it's there and some not, tends to spike with academic stress.
Second, memory problems. You know how you see an actor and you're like, "Where is he from?!" and you have to IMDb it? That sort of thing has happened to me a lot (not just with actors) since getting anxiety, a lot more than what I think is normal.
Third, light sensitivity in one eye. I don't notice a huge problem with vision, but my right eye is more sensitive to light than my left. Also the prescription is higher in that eye.
Fourth and finally, mild muscle twitching, especially in legs, especially when I'm cold (which I also seem to be cold when others aren't...)
These are the symptoms that I can't decide are normal, or anxiety.
I have a swollen lymph node on my neck that has been this way since August. As long as it's there, it's like constant, mild anxiety, even on my good days, the lymph node is always there and it sucks. I just wish it would go away. My doctor has been keeping an eye on it. She thinks it's a symptom of the acne on my neck (which also started when my anxiety started :/). Blood tests have all come back normal, though.
Sorry about how long this post is. I'm trying to type very calmly but truthfully I am having such an awful panic attack right now, I feel like I might pass out. I hate this anxiety disorder. I want to crawl into a hole and cry. Sometimes I think I will never get better.