I am from NZ, I have always suffered from depression on and off since I was about 14. After some trouble with a couple of people I thought were my best friends, I have spiralled in to some pretty severe anxiety issues.
I have trouble having conversations with people, afterwards I can only think about the things I have done wrong and how I might have offended them. I then get so convinced that I have done something horrible I am to shy to speak to them again. It's hard because I come across very bubbly and happy, but no one knows how much effort it takes to get out of bed, the fear of offending someone that day.. Just not wanting to deal with anyone because I am so scared of it just going terribly. I have trouble sleeping because all I do is think over everything I have done, and how I did it wrong. It's all consuming and ends up in a lot of self hate.
I hope that isn't all depressing, it is nice to be able to write it down and start the journey to getting better