I just joined this forum because I am battling some anxiety issues. I can look back to childhood and see traces of anxiety in certain memories. It wasn't until I was around 7 when the fear of hurting myself came about. First, my anxiety manifested itself in that I was afraid that I was going to stab myself with a knife in the stomach. I can't explain the terror of that as a kid. Then it continued to manifest itself in strange ways like being afraid that I am going to jam my finger behind my eye ball or that I would break my own nose and shove it up to my brain. Weird and terrifying stuff. As I got older, it turned to being afraid of health issues to other strange ways to hurt myself. When I hit college, I began to have relief from my anxiety more so in the spring and summer. Winters were awful. I was missing class and depressed my sophomore year of college. After a long reprieve from much of my anxiety, it has returned. And it is the kind with irrational fear that I am going to hurt myself. The last month in particular, it has been that I am going to push my finger behind my eyeball. It sucks and seems childish. I am now 24 and had thought that by chance I had grown out of this kind of crap. How do I fight this? How do I rationalize these annoying and bullshit thoughts? How do I logically examine these things with out giving in to my fear. I am a man of faith, and hopefully the Lord will send me some solid brothers and sisters who know my struggle. Thanks and God bless.