Hey there, new here. I didn't intend to join an anxiety forum, I was actually freaking out to myself about seeing lights in my vision at when I first wake up lately and Googling possible causes when I stumbled onto this forum and saw that other people here had seen something similar in a post from a few years ago. I woke up at 4am to pee, saw some momentary shifting light and can't go back to sleep. Luckily I'm still on semester break and vacay from work. Still, it calmed me down a little, I'd rather it be my mind playing tricks on me than retinal detachment or brain cancer, mind tricks I'm used to.
So here I am, I figure I could probably learn/contribute, also it's something to do until an eye doctor's open to go get checked out. I'm a 23-year-old male college student in Chicago graduating this Spring and starting my life. With the lights in the eye thing, I think it goes without saying that I'm haunted by horrible fears of going blind, especially being an art student who will have to build a life around visual design work. My main poisons are a compulsive need to check locks, windows, and gas stoves multiple times a night or before leaving my apartment for fear of my apartment being destroyed or burglarized and owing some life-destroyingly huge debt because of it. Fear of sex and not being able to perform, that no one will understand my inexperience or care to accommodate me. Oh, and can't can't forget meteors hitting Chicago where I'm at, planes falling from the sky and living in a big city, being fallen on and paralyzed or killed by a suicidal roof diver. Nice to meet you all! :D