Hi everyone. I know it's been a while since my last post, but that doesn't mean the anxiety has gone away. Well I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but I have emetophobia which means I'm afraid of vomit. It's a weird thing I know but ever since I was little it's been my worst fear. Anyways, it's my third week at school and I'm absolutely terrifed. It's a new semester and everything already sucks. My friends are distant, I've been testing nonstop and it's been a full year with anxiety. I got it last year in January of 2013 and my mother still refuses to take me to a doctor. I just hate it so much I feel nauseous and sad ugh it's too much. I'm not close to my best friend anymore, I'm still madly in love with my ex boyfriend and I really want things to go back to how they were a year ago. It's flu season which terrifies me because I get scared of being sick and of the people at school being sick. It's silly but I'm so scared of having people throw up in class or get me sick and I end up throwing up. I wanna stay home forever but I can't. Spring break is in 6 weeks and I just wanna leave already. What I'm mostly anxious about is change. I just can't accept it. Can anyone offer me advice? Thanks for reading.