I haven't been on here in a few weeks. I've been feeling so much better and have had several very relaxing days. My anxiety is a fraction of what it was a month ago. I felt burdened to log in and share how I got to this point because to be very honest I wasn't sure that I would ever get here. It was so bad that I had started thinking life wasn't even worth living.
About a month ago I hit rock bottom. I was having panic attacks one right after the other to the point where I was in a state of panic pretty much all day. I finally just said, "God, I can't do this". I started praying a lot. I started memorizing scripture and repeating it to myself. After the new year I also decided that I was going to stop googling. With a few exceptions I've been able to stay away from Dr. Google. There is NO WAY I have been able to do this on my own. I was googling so many times a day that my phone was constantly going dead and it was interfering with my marriage.
God is bigger than your anxiety, friends. He loves you so dearly and it is not in his will for you to live in fear. Proverbs 3:5-7