I'm Slippy (well, my dog is named Slippy, he's a pomeranian) and I have been reading anxietyzone for a while, but have never actually posted before. However, in the past it has been very helpful just to read other people's thoughts on issues I can relate to. But tonight, it's 3:30 in the morning, and I can't sleep...so i figured it was time. I am 28 and from Brooklyn, NY.
My problem right now is that I am having this weird pain that is in my shoulders, my neck sort of an my lower jaw like right below my ear. It isn't horrible, but just annoying enough that...I mean...it's 3:30 and I worked all day.
My boyfriend thinks this is happening because I am constantly tense and nervous. I have anxiety like seriously to the MAX. Especially health anxiety, like to the point where I see a million doctors all the time. Actually, today I just got back my results for the lupus ANA thing or whatever, and an ESR test--both negative. My ESR is 8 and My doctor said, "you are so normal." Right.
The problem is that once I am cleared of something (okay, think MS, Chrons, Breast Cancer--you name it) I am totally afraid I have something else, OR that the test results don't mean anything. And the problem happens, where, okay, I have this weird pain now and I have no idea whats causing it, but I don't trust myself or my body enough to conclude that it is something benign.
I am seeing a therapist and just got a script for Zoloft which I am about to start taking.
But my question is, does anyone get weird jaw/neck like tensiony pain? My jaw feels kind of hot too. I don't know...TMJ? Wisdom teeth? Paranioa? An infection??
If anyone has any insights to this, let me know. Also, if anyone has any cool ways of even temporarily getting over this anxiety, that would be really helpful. Like what distracts you? I have already watched EVERY SINGLE KING OF THE HILL episode.
I'll just leave it at that.