So the past couple weeks I've been feeling a bunch of painful, weird sensations. The most concerning was a very bad pain in my chest/abdomen area. Because of it, I ended up running off to the E.R. day before yesterday - EKG and blood work came back fine, and they told me it was probably my GERD and gastritis acting up. Yesterday was the best day I had in a long, long time. Today's not too bad either, but the other sensation that's been haunting me has been bugging me for a couple of hours now.
My neck and shoulder, particularly my left shoulder, are so seized up that it hurts. Especially when I move. Even getting around my apartment takes a lot of effort, mainly because the more I move (and the longer distance I walk, measured in mere steps!) the more it seizes up. To the point where I start to feel a painful tugging in my chest, which sets me off! I now know I'm not in any real danger but I still get incredibly anxious when the tugging starts because it gets worse and worse the farther I walk. I am illogically scared of what will happen if I just walk and walk and let it get worse and worse. I've actually tried to see how bad it could get, on purpose, because I've ready a ton of books about anxiety that say you should deliberately make it worse and worse so you can see it through to the end and realize there's no terrible fate awaiting on 'the other side. But I always chicken out.
I can still breathe perfectly fine, and I can swallow okay (maybe a tiny bit more difficult). It reminds me of my first day of 6th grade, when I had so much stuff in my backpack that it must have weighed like ten pounds. Except worse. And with that chest tug thing, which is my least favorite part.
I'm putting a lot of icy-hot on it. My neck feels really weird and lumpy and tense to the touch. I know anxiety can cause muscle spasms but man is this rough. It's tolerable when I'm stationary (sitting, lying down), but even standing still is hard to tolerate (But I can manage). It's moving that's hard. Anyone else know of how I can deal with what I imagine is a spasm? Any good stretches I can try? Thanks!