Hello- My husband was diagnosed with GAD in October. He has been on medication since mid November. He says his panic attacks are under much more control however his depression is really bad. In the last month he has had extreme mood swings. He can have things under control - he is never fine- one moment then be in a complete rage the next. His depression gets so severe that you can see the pain on his face. He says he hurts so much. His therapist has told him that he needs to work on his self esteem and that he is also suffering from co-dependency. He has become friends with people at work and started bike riding with them and going out drinking to blow off steam. Doesn't come home for the kids bedtime and doesn't call. His personality has also changed. Depending on the day he is now blaming me for the majority of his issues. He believes I control him, have "emasculated him" and wants to "rebel" against me. He started a ***** account and is obsessed with it. He is texting a couple of the secretaries at work all day long. He says it's because he knows I would not approve. He is now heavy into porn, and has very explicit conversations with me about what he needs sexually in order to be happy. He rarely plays with his son anymore and has no interest in our new daughter. Has even said he wants to run away and start a new family. He cries all the time. He doesn't sleep much anymore. It's like he is living in the now and how he can make himself happy at that moment and doesn't care who he hurts in the process. He also lashing out at his mother and his secretary. I think he has hit or is hitting rock bottom. Last night he said he is like a junkie and is munipulating people's emotions to get what he wants. It's about immediate gratification and knows he is being an ass. He said it is not me (although I know we have marital issues) but knows that I am receiving the bulk of it from him and doesn't understand why I am still here. He said he is then so depressed after his emotional high because he hurt and used people to get there. Unfortunetly, our four year old is now becoming aware as much as I try and deflect. My husband says he is out of control and doesn't know how to stop it but that he is at the end and something has to give. One or both of us cries ourself to sleep each night.
I look at him and don't know who he is anymore..and honestly he sometimes scares me. And I worry that he may hurt himself. Is he having a nervous breakdown? Is any of this erractic behavior symptoms of GAD and depression or is it something more. We are on a serious downward spiral.