Steph: I hate starting my mornings off this way too. Just wish I could feel "normal" again. I'm fighting back against it today. Today has been a good day so far, but the constant "searching" thoughts are still there, but I'm trying to occupy my mind. Busy busy busy! So I received some new cookbooks in the mail this morning, so today I'm going to explore those, and I've decided to get all dressed up today - even though I'm not leaving the house. Trying my darndest to take my mind and put it to GOOD use.