Oh, I am so sorry. S is no option at all, so forget that. None of us could ever do that to those we leave behind. So that's number one item. The work situation is so very rough for so many. I blame technology, the global economy and who knows what else. We can't all be scientific geniuses, inventors, artists, etc.
So what can we do? First, drinking won't solve a thing. What would I do? Research where there may be work possibilities and train for them. Take the necessary courses, get the skills. The "interest, fun, happiness" are a by product of feeling productive and self supporting. You've come to a good place, we can try and support you as best we can. We want to give you optimism and hope. We are fighters. There is no other way. Wishing you all the best, keep us posted.