As with most people with OCD, GAD, obsessions etc... I feel like your at your worst when your "alone with your thoughts" or not distracted. With me I'm 100% normal when I'm half way through a conversation with a friend or family, or half way through my workout at the gym, or at a club etc... Because my focus is completely on the present moment. Which is also kinda proves that there isn't really anything wrong with us other than our emotions are a little skewed more than the average human being which makes us ultra sensitive to a lot of things most of it being irrational like your obsessions. With me it's as if I'm afraid of the thoughts that are in my head, at time I want to run away from my thoughts but I know that's impossible because there always a part of me. Some thoughts that strike hard for me are "What if I'm stuck with these thoughts forever", "what if I become hopeless" etc.. As I said in my last post that my psychologists has been telling me to practice meditation for 15 minutes a day every day. I just wanted to describe what he wants me to do and why it helps, and how I thinkk I've already made a slightttttt improvement in just the 3 days I've been practicing.
So what he has me do is a form or meditation (forgot the actual name) where you literally just sit there in a quiet room and do absolutely nothing. You just sit there and observe whatever it is and whatever is happening without trying to control anything. So it's not like a traditional meditation where you solely focus on your breath, or a specific object, mantra, thought etc... Your just learning to be aware of moment by moment happenings. Whether it's a thought, sound, visual thing, feeling, smell, emotion whatever grabs your attention. Do not try and control anything, if you have a song stuck on your head and can't get it out, just let it be there. Your observing moment by moment without judging. He says this will help you be more aware of your thoughts and where there coming from, and to learn to tolerate your thoughts and emotions better by sitting with them. To the point where one day you'll realize that the stuff that goes through your head isn't any more important than the farts that come out of your ass lol. I think you should try it, there are also youtube videos describing this form of meditation too. My psychologists said the traditional form of meditation is also good but believes that's better for learning to focus where as this is more of a awareness and tolerance type of meditation. Hope that helps!! :)