Back in February I woke up in the middle of the night with a burning pain above my belly button. Instantly I was convinced it was cancer. I was 29 at the time (now 30). For the following month or two I had diarrhea, cramps, etc. Twice I think I noticed a small amount of blood on the stool (maybe a cm). Although, even now, on occasion feel a burning or itchy sensation down there, but that actually made me feel better about the blood I had seen before because I know that's a sign of hemorrhoids or fissures, but I don't remember specifically at the time. Anyway, I also began to lose weight - I lost around 10-12lbs during that time. I was positive it was colon cancer. The first doc didn't really pay attention but the second doc sent me for a round of tests: blood, urine, stool sample, along with endoscopy and abdominal ultrasound. All of these were fine except a small gallbladder polyp which is common. They didn't do a colonoscopy though. For a good while I didn't worry - I figured if things were off they'd investigate further, and since nothing was, I shouldn't worry. And now, nearly a year later, my symptoms are much better. Though I'm still not totally regular and the urge to go isn't as strong as it was before the troubles, I've not seen blood, I gained all the weight back, and haven't had that pain again. Especially since I began taking a probiotic things have gotten much better - very well formed stools and more regular, which I kind of doubt would help much if it were cancer.
But I'm still struggling with the nagging worry of not having had a colonscopy. I'm wondering if I need to go to the doc and ask for one, or if I should accept that this is my HA speaking and should trust the docs and let it go. I don't want to waste the money and time to do it if I really don't need it, nor I do I want to feed my HA and give a crutch for my anxiety, but I also don't want to go through 2014 with the same worries as 2013. Any thoughts?