Guys i really need to vent because this is slowly eating me up. I have asymmetric tonsils, for some time now, my GP noticed it at the beginning of August but wasn't concerned about it. Now i rememebr back then feeling slight pain/burning feeling on the right side and getting chills during the day which is unsual because it was rather hot backthen. Anyhow none of this was really severe or debilitating in any way so i didn't pay attention to it. Come September, the university starts, and i get a sore throat which lasted for about 3 days, but wasn't severe at all, I could function normally. Then towards the ending of october, i get, i hope at least, tonsillitis, fever for a few days, right tonsil quite enlarged and coated in yellowish/white pus, enormous throat ache and to top it all off around that time my wisdom teeth start coming out so i couldn't eat properly for roughly 10 days. Anyway went to my GP again, he didn't seem overly concerned, ordered a blood test to check for mono, and gave me antibiotics. Blood test came back negative for mono but i did have slightly elevated neutrophil count, its the white blood cells which typically fight bacterial infections, however the antibiotic he gave me didn't overly help with my infection, i was under the impression that it had run its course and antibiotic did nothing to improve that. But it must have been a bacterial infection on the count of elevated neutrophils so the fact that antibiotic didn't help rather puzzles me. In any case, most of the pain went away after ten days but i kept feeling discomfort on the right side so one night i decide to go to the ER, where i was seen by an ENT in training. He said he was certain that its something benign but because i seem distressed that it could be cancer he gave me a refferal to the ENT. I went to the ENT the very next morning, an older guy, i've been told he is experienced, i began explaining my situation and before i could even get half way through my story he just said, let me check. And check he did, and said, yes the right one is a little enlarged but the way the tissue looks is just fine, don't worry at all its not a malignancy, he didn't even bother checking my lymph nodes. Anyhow, i was feeling kinda fine for about a day after that appointment but then the fear kicked in again, and it was made worse by the fact that shortly after that i had a stomach virus which caused some unpleasnt symptoms for about a day including a mild fever. At that point my hypochondria kicked in, i started coming up with all sorts of theories how lymphoma is supressing my immune system and i'm becoming prone to infections so i decided to make an appointment with another ENT for the second opinion. Had the appintment, this was mid november, and he basically said that he was 100% certain i don't have lymphoma or any other blood cancer, the tissue on the tonsil looks healthy, the size difference is not so huge in his opinion and its probably due to positioning but in any case no malignancy. He said he could feel two lymph nodes on each side, under the jaw, each roughly 0.5cm, not worrying at all. Said the nodes can stay swollen for several months due to the infection. I insisted at this point on a scan of the neck, just to check out the nodes and be certain about the number and size but he said he doesn't give scans unless he deems it necessary which i guess at that point at least wasn't the case for me. Anyhow, here we are now, my tonsil is still the same size, i recently managed to persuade my GP for another blood test which came back completely normal. The lymph node on the left side, which in my opinion was never really prominent at all had now completely dissapeard whereas the one on the right side is still there, went to see my GP this monday and he said he couldn't feel any swollen nodes. I asked for a tonsillectomy but he said that the specialist had said that it isn't necessary and that he himself thinks it would be counterproductive in my case. Btw my GP is about to retire so he isn't inexperienced or at least i try to comfort myself in that way. Nontheless, since all of this begun i'm living in constant fear, im constantly plotting how to get another appointment with a doctor, how to get a scan, what if i have lymphoma and they are all just playing it down because of my age, i'm only 20, i did smoke for about one year, mostly socially, when i go about but smoke nontheless. I'd really appreciate some support guys, thanks to anyone who takes the time to read the post.