I'm new to this forum and I guess I was just hoping that I'd be able to talk to people who can understand me.
I've always been an introvert, insecure and hated attention. When I was 6 I started being bullied at school and started suffering from severe anxiety and having panic attacks.. I was diagnosed with it and was given medication but they made me suicidal and depressed so, I stopped taking them. The situation only got worse when I started growing up, I had no friends, it was getting harder and harder to talk to therapists about my problems, I lost faith in everything, I developed major trust issues and started feeling like ***** about myself... At one point I started self harming because I was depressed (I didn't eat, sleep, I wasn't motivated to do anything, I was never happy...) and my parents started treating me and making me feel like utter crap. I have nobody to talk to and I've been contemplating the idea of ***** since I was 8 because of those and other reasons I'm not going to get into right now and the anxiety has only gotten worse. I really don't want to ***** but sometimes it seems like the only option.
So, that's me (more or less)