Hello everyone:) I am new to these forums so excuse my bad grammar as my English is not very good.To begin I would like to wish everyone a happy holidays and Merry Christmas! I created this thread to address a personal issue that has been bothering me since august and has affected my life in a Negative way. I am currently 19 years of age and recently moved to Texas. I had experienced a panic attack around august while I was attempting to fall asleep. I felt like I was going to die or get some sort of stroke it was a horrible experience! My parents had to calm me down as I was crying hysterically almost all night! I somehow managed to fall asleep that night and went through the next day putting that issue besides me. The next night I had begun to dread the thought of losing control while sleeping. I feared entering the moment where our bodies are fully asleep. I began to think this was a normal occurrence after a panic attack and simply accepted the fact that I could not fall asleep that night(I had faced several sleepless nights prior and was used to the idea.) Unfortunately this was not the end of it as I went through the week not being able to sleep at all for the same reasons. I began to panic and cry almost every night because I feared that I would die soon if I did not fall asleep! Even if I was dead tired my worries prevented me from falling asleep! 3 am then 4 am then 5 am the hours ticked by as they felt like days. It felt like hell:( When I did manage to sleep however I only manage to clock in about 3-4 hours max before having to wake up for class,job,appointments ect. I tried to get my parents to help me but they seem to think I am only being silly(Which I totally agree by the way!) Eventually I did some research of my own and discovered that I had something called Hypnophobia or Somniophobia which is the irregular fear of sleep or falling asleep and discovered that other people had the same issues as me. I felt relieved in a way that I wasn't alone and the fact that I was going to see my doctor soon assured me that I would find a soultion soon. My docter prescribed me Trazodone a anti depressent and sleep aid. At this point I was willing to do anything to solve my problem .even take meds. I took them the first night and it seemed to work and I had the best sleep of my life! But the next night when I decided not to take them so I would not get addicted I could not sleep. So obviously I decided to take them again last night only for it to give me a headache and make me break down in tears!
The very thing I was trying to stop came right back and hit me in the face! I managed to fall asleep however at 6am and woke up at 12 am to go Christmas shopping. I felt extremely depressed and anxious as I walked around the stores something that usually filled me with joy especially during the holiday season:( Now here I am righting my problems and issues here on this forum hoping to see if there is anyone who can relate to me and hopefully provide some solutions:) I am at the lowest point in my life right now and I am looking to regain control of it in anyway I can! Thank you for reading my extremely long post but I hope you had enough patience to read through it all:) Thank you!