Thanks again guys, it really helps to talk to someone about things who actually understands!
I have never had this issue before, I am a bit of a worrier but not to this extreme. Just recently my ex bf had a heart attack aged just 27 and he died. It kind of shocked me and made me question everything. I work in a hospital so I am always hearing and writing about horrible things. I also hear ambulances and it makes me feel sick! A few weeks back I started getting headaches in a different place to where i'd been experiencing them so it freaked me out. I went to my GP who said it's obviously anxiey and to calm down (easier said than done). That night half my face and arm went tingly, I went to A&E and they said I had high BP caused by anxiety.. checked eyes etc and all ok.. told me to forget about the headache and again calm down! I then went for a proper eye test as well, they checked behind eyes said any tumour or bleed would be visible and obvious.. again all ok.
For some reason I must have googled brain tumour, then got it in my head without any other symptoms that this must be the only reasonable explanation! I went to the GP again to request something to sort BP out as he again said it was high but didn't believe I was anxious (he doesn't know me!) and he gave me Propranolol which i'm taking 10mg three times a day. He also referred me for a CT because I asked and wrote on the form 'headache.. very worried re tumour'. He was a really horrible GP and really blunt and nasty with me. Insisted I wasn't anxious and he couldn't explain my high BP! This didn't reassure me! That made me wonder why my BP is high, but the fact I have thought about a brain tumour for over 3 weeks solidly.. probably says something about my anxiety levels!!
I've been trying to get on as normal at work etc but these headaches are just there constantly and are making me worry. It's a vicious circle.. the more I worry the worse my head is. I CANNOT RELAX! I have self help books but with a headache who wants to read?! I want to be excited for xmas.. I love xmas and we're going away but instead I have it in my head that this may be my last xmas if I have a tumour etc etc. I also just ate my 24th December advent chocolate because I had a chocolate craving, and then worried that I have cursed myself not to make it to Christmas! Now this is getting bloody stupid!
So I emailed the consultant I work for (only perk of the job) asking if he can request an MRI instead... not heard back.
I feel worse today, although I had been getting better over the last few days. Not sure if this is the thought of a scan and the results... or the fact I was having my CT today I assumed i'd get the results there and then and it would be normal therefore i'd be ok. In reality I would have had the CT, not got the results until after xmas and felt the same.
My god I am going on aren't I! I am at work... meant to be typing letters but I can't concentrate on anything but THIS.!!!!!
greend... your rash thing, If it weren't for HA.. you'd wait and see if it spread then deal with it.! I should relax, wait for my headache to go away... then be reassured! IMPOSSIBLE!!