But since PCP's are not psychiatrist is there a chance the psychiatrist will have me try something else? I'm scared of that but I know the psychiatrist knows best.
Welcome to AnxietyZone, Brenda.
Many doctors and psychiatrists are reluctant to prescribe benzodiazepine drugs like Valium because of the perceived dependence issue, so the psychiatrist may want to switch you to an antidepressant. Antidepressants can be very effective anti anxiety meds, however, they may worsen anxiety initially, so hopefully you will be allowed to continue taking Valium until the antidepressant begins working which can take 3-12 weeks.
I know this sounds stupid but will I get in trouble for forgetting to take the pill a couple of times?
No, it would have been of far greater concern if you'd had far fewer tablets remaining than you should have. Valium has a very long half-life, up to 200 hours, so missing the odd daily dose usually makes little if any difference.
I've always thought I was just an overprotective mom and maybe a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to my job.
Which makes you a prime candidate for an anxiety disorder, unfortunately. This may be something you should work on.
This is why I was wondering why on earth am I having these anxiety attacks.
This is the question that haunts most of us. While anxiety disorders (and depression) most often begin within a year or so of a significant life event such as a bereavement, relationship break-up, job loss, moving house, serious illness or injury, etc, often there is no discernible cause. It may just come down to genetic susceptibility (which can be more than DNA, Google: epigenetics
) and the slow drip of normal day to day stress gradually destroying brain cells (see: Depression, antidepressants, and the shrinking hippocampus
- this applies equally to anxiety which shares the same biology).
BTW-knowing what caused an anxiety disorder doesn't necessarily improve recovery. Many with PTSD, for example, know exactly what triggered it, often in great detail, but this doesn't help, just the opposite in fact. The cause is mostly irrelevant, it is how you react to it which counts. The cognitive and/or behavioural and/or mindfulness therapies can teach you how to reframe anxiety. They can be very effective, though they do require time and effort to get the best outcomes. You may also learn how to ease up on the perfectionism which while an admirable trait can sometimes become emotionally destructive.