Yep...it is tough to get out of the cycle. That's why we are on an anxiety forum right?
Take me for example.....I had already been stressing about night time urination. I was obsessed that I had to get up at night to pee because the internet labeled it Nocturia Polyuria and said at age 36 it was uncommon. Nevermind that I had been drinking large amounts of sweet tea before bed and am overweight by 25 lbs.
I took it to the extreme....performing the pee volume tests I read about. Measuring my pee totals during the day vs the night to see if I actually had the issue. How stupid and crazy does that sound? I mean, I am a college educated manager of like 10 people for a large company. I have a beautiful wife and son, nice home.....and I am peeing in a bottle during the day without the direction of a dr.
So fast forward to the weekend this MS fear came about 4 weeks ago. I had gotten up at 4am to hunt with my dad. Packed a 50 lbs pack on my back. Walked 2 miles into the woods through mud. Climbed 20 feet up a tree. Hiked back to my truck and never had one sensation, issue or anything I have now. It was on this trip my dad mentioned MS in our family 2 generations ago that it started. I fixated on MS since I recalled in my mind MS was a cause of urination issues.
Then...the pain started the next day. It started as leg pain...to tingling...to electric shocks....to eye pain....to face tingling...and now to foot pain.
I mean did I just fall apart in the span of four weeks?
In my mind it makes so much sense how stress has brought it all on yet the HA in me still doubts it. And here is the funniest part of all of this..
To help me sleep my Dr. gave me some pills named trazodone. They are in fact an old antidepressant that is used for sleeping now that better SRI pills have come out that make people less drowsy. They have allowed me to sleep and last night I actually slept 8 hours without waking up once.
Now that I think about it, I haven't had the need to pee at night for a few weeks now. My peeing at night issue is gone!!!! Now that I am fixated on something else.
I hope my craziness can serve as an example of what the mind can do.
Looks like we have a lot in common.
My MS fear started in a similar way - my Dad hold told me about how my uncle was recently diagnosed with MS and started telling me what it was and what the symptoms were - before this I only know of the disease and didn't know jack about it.
Then one day, about a year later I start getting tingling in my right leg and arm - and immediately I think about MS.
From there, I started getting what felt like growing pains in my legs, burning sensations, muscle fatigue, and just general pain all over - and this lasted for weeks.
So, I get an MRI and two exams and my doc rules MS out tells me to try and relax.
Now I've moved on to Parkinson's and I just can't let it go.