Hi justliving -
Hey Abraham, thanks for posting up all the information. I was not aware of most of it.
You mentioned doing quite a bit of research on PTSD. In your research, you'll come across all the terms and suggestions I mentioned in terms of treatment.
Just fyi, before I took my anxiety disorder seriously, I was fairly clueless on what generalized anxiety disorder or PTSD was. I didn't take it seriously, because I thought I could overcome it with my will and determination, until it negatively impacted my life. So I learned a lot about anxiety disorders, as my own personal way to manage my own health.
As for the cocktail of meds I was on. I don't know. My doctor and I tried for six months to get it straightened out. I would go in every few weeks or so to adjust this, change that, put me on something different. As for what I was on - I couldn't even tell you.
Were you diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, when you met with your doctor? It sounds as if you were diagnosed more with issues about high blood pressure from overwhelming stress, since you mentioned ibuprofin. Anxiety disorders deal more with the brain and the nervous system, so it's a different part of the body that needs to be treated, from a medical standpoint.
I've also learned to not follow a doctor, or any therapist, blindly, when prescribed medication or alternative treatment.
But here is the long story short. I would take my cocktail of meds at the prescribed times. Feel absolutely amazing!! (By the way - off topic, have you ever seen the movie "Limitless" - this is how I felt.) I would feel limitless! Taking thse meds. Felt amazing. But then within a short 10 to 15 minute window I would crash. (the meds would last anywhere between 4 and 6 hours - and all of a suddent I would go from feeling amazing - to feeling horrid). The crash was horrific. Another tangent - I have a high metabolism (I weigh about 185 pounds - 14% body fat -but eat anywhere between 3,000 and 4,5000 calories a day). I'm pretty sure my body was metabolizing the meds quickly and then crashing and burning.
Anxiety medication isn't quite like eating food. They have to build up in your system first (like between three to twelve weeks) and work at developing new neurons in your brain cells, which were killed off from anxiety, likewise they will have an effect on your gut, blood and nervous system.
If you were taking antianxiety medication, your symptoms were based more on withdrawl, meaning you probably were on a certain drug for a month or so, daily, and then changed meds. Your body adjusted to the med, however, when taken away, it didn't know how to manage itself. That would mean you were not quite prescribed correct dosages, and that has a big impact on effectivity. Time period of whether you take it during the day or night, isn't really the issue with anxiety medication, it's more dosage and type.
But your symptoms don't sound like withdrawl, becausey you stated you still felt elevated highs. So you may have not been on antianxiety medication, but possibly heart medication.
You really should call your old doctor and ask for transcripts of what he prescribed for you, and there should be no fee for this. It would also help you in the future when you see another doctor and he asks what types of medications you've been in terms of your history. Likewise this would help you to know if it was a medication, for mental health, causing this. However, medications, of any type, have different effects on different people. For example, when dealing with a medical issue like strep throat, a doctor may have to prescribe different medications to get the full healing effect on the body. This is no different with medication used to manage anxiety.
Anxiety medication could be simliar to using a knife. If used improperly, by not following the proper supervison from someone who knows how to prescribe these medications, aka a psychiatrist, it can kill and bleed. However if used under the right direction, it can carve beautiful objects from wood, or carve a beautiful life for you, without being bogged down by this serious health issue. Generalized Anxiety Disorder is a deemed a legitamate disability in the United States. You are actually covered by it, under law, from being fired for a job, since it is a disability.
The major stress in my life was my job - I made a decision I could hold out until a specific date and then come hell or high water I was quiting. I desperately tried to find a new job. Nothing. The date came. I quit. Pretty much flushed my career down the drain. I filed bankruptcy not too long ago and now I am rebuilding. It sucks. But it happens.
I come from a similiar background when managing my anxiety disorder. I've left jobs, even housing conditions, in order to avoid stimulating, stressful circumstances that activated my anxiety. Yet after leaving the stressor, the anxiety still remained intact, and I was under the false premise the anxiety would go away. Now, I'm not saying you didn't have a stressful job, however your reaction to it may have been different compared to someone who doesn't suffer from an anxiety disorder.
Consequently, I know from experience, that anxiety disorders really rob you of intelligent thinking. I've made a lot of stupid decisons, when under my anxiety disorder. If I had it under control, many issues in my life would have never got out of hand. Consequently, by now, you have probably have come to conclusion that anxiety disorders never fully go away. They are chronic conditions that come and go, but never fully leave you. Even if you've been in remission for a couple of years, they can come back suddenly and really bite you in the axx.
I've been doing some research in what the military is doing for our soldiers coming back from the middle east. Many of them are showing signs of PTSD. And there have been record 0119 rates of returning military vets. The government started researching methods of coping with PTSD. They have been researching different medications, therapy, group therapy, acupuncture, herbal supplements, and so on. I can't remember the book that I read that covered this research - I've been reading a lot about PTSD and anxiety. Trying to figure out how I'm going to live with this. Still don't have all the answers. Probably never will. Just trying to live my life.
Just to add a bit of optimism - we all know most people who enter the military are fairly compentent mentally. In fact if you try to join the army, having prescribed mental health medication, you may be prevented from enlisting. Regardless, a lot of the recruits that come back suffer PTSD and it has a negative impat on them for life. So know, with an anxiety disorder, you are not alone in managing it, since other people with healthy mental backgrounds have developed it, in reaction to stressors in their life. Anxiety disorders are not for the emotionally weak, instead they are for people with a medical disorder in reaction to stress.
Be free to email me if you ever need someone to discuss these issues about PTSD or GAD.