I am going to try explain this. I really don't know if anyone can relate, but if you do please let me know I'm not alone in feeling this way. I have had anxiety almost my whole life. It would seem to come and go throughout my childhood. When I was 14 I suffered a panic attack that would change everything. It was different from the rest I had before. I kept tellilng my parents I was going crazy. It was the first time I remember suffering from derealization. Nothing felt real anymore. After that panic attack I have never felt the same. My anxiety has never left and I now have depression ontop of the anxiety. It has been 13 years now and I still feel different from when I use to. I still feel like the people around me are not the same people I use to know. I really feel I am in another diminsion than the one I once knew. I know it sounds insane but it is how I feel and often worry I have died and now in hell. Though when my anxiety and depression aren't bad I don't think about all this even though I know things feel different than before. I know things can never be or feel like they use to but I just wonder why I feel this way. Can anyone relate at all? I am afraid I am the only one to feel this way.