If its not one thing its another right?? No matter what i bounce to or how much time has passed i always come back to worrying that i am doomed to get cancer due to the amount of x-rays and cat scans i have had. Had i have known those scans were dangerous i would not have gotten any of them unless there was no other way around it..
I think what bothers me most when i think about it is the fact that i was my own worst enemy! i was the one who pushed and pushed, i was the anxious one running to the er with every illness i heard about and thought i had it. The amount of scans i have had really scares me. Am i alone in this?? Is there anyone out there that has had sooo many scans and worries about it now?
I have had many many x-rays, i have had a lot of cat scans, i even have had a cardiac cath where the put dye in your heart and take x-rays. At one point when i first started having heart arrythmias i ran to the er almost everyday and sometimes twice in a day. Each time they did a chest x-ray. I recall around this time my hair started to fall out in globs. Could it have been from all the scans? I never thought about that then but i do now A LOT..
I am so afraid that i will get cancer from all those many scans if i dont already have it not to mention cancer runs very heavy in my mothers family. My sister at the age of only 34 had to deal with it and my aunt was in her 20s when she had to deal with it and my grandmother died when she was 42 from it. All this scares me so very much. I think im going to leave my kids without a mother and i am the blame because i just couldnt accept that i was okay.
Anyone else fear this?? Anyone else have soo many scans? I dont mean a handful, i mean an obscene amount.
I need to talk, i need someone to talk to, a friend to talk to. please if there is anyone out there that can relate??