Hi, this is my first post. I am mostly a "pure O" and I have recurring intrusive thoughts about the concept of time. It started years ago but it keeps getting worse. My fixation is on "Why am I in the present moment??" like "of all the possible moments in time i could be in or experience, why this one??" and I just think that over and over until I feel totally depersonalized and anxious and then I keep thinking "why is no one else thinking about this?how does no one else find this strange?" and it gets so bad i can't concentrate on anything else and I have a really hard time explaining it to people and I'm not really sure I just did accurately. It then leads to extreme anxiety, panic attacks, insomnia, inability to concentrate on anything else and I'm really scared it will just never stop. I have never met anyone else who had the same fixation and it's a question that can't be answered, which was what made my other obsessive thoughts go away...finding a satisfying answer. I feel like I'm completely alone with this, because I read books about ocd and obsessive thoughts and have searched online and most people's experiences seem really different and closer to what i initially struggled with (contamination, washing, etc.) and i just want my brain to shut the heck up so i can actually live my life. Thanks to anyone who responds to this.