I have been suffering with really severe anxiety and panic attacks for at least 2 weeks now. Went over a week with no sleep at all except for an hour or two sweaty naps on some nights. I was given Xanax to take as needed (try not to take it) and Ambien (which only helps me fall asleep, not stay asleep), and now on Lexapro for 4 days.
It all started while I was travelling in Thailand alone. I got sick and had some various health issues that I had to take some time in treating (trying different antibiotics). I started feeling better and then all of a sudden one night was feeling anxious while out with some people I met. I went back to my room feeling weird, assuming it was the antibiotic i was on (Flagyl) to treat intestinal issue. I noticed I had some slight pain in my mouth so I checked it out in the mirror and saw I had some sores. I was immediately overwhelmed with the sight of yet another symptom after all my time with various ailments, and I had a huge onset of anxiety and panic. I booked a ticket back to Bangkok and went to a hospital the next morning. They did some tests and everything came back fine. So that night I continued with my antibiotic, feeling relieved and in the evening suffered a severe panic attack and ended up in the ER. I went to the hospital numerous times after and eventually changed my flight and came home early and saw my doctors here. I am still having tests done but so far, no signs of anything. But my anxiety in UNCONTROLLABLE. I constantly have a knot in my stomach and feel my heart beating, sometimes racing, sometimes normal. I hate being alone, yet am nervous to talk to my friends and tell them what has happened to me. I avoid thinking about the trip (which is hard, I was away for 2.5 months) but the anxiety is there even when I dont think about it. My body is sensitive and I'm so tired but can't stay asleep! Its also hard to describe the sensation that comes over me with the anxiety, like a terrible taste in my body accompanying the intense anxiousness. I was so worried about my health and that I was going to die while I was away and never see my family again. Now I'm home and I'm just so worried that I will feel like this forever.
Throughout my life I have had a few panic attacks. For certain I can only remember 2. Once when I was 17, once about a year ago. I am 23 now. They both happened waking up from a nap and lasted about 10 minutes and then were completely gone, with no other signs of them. But otherwise have always led a normal life, living and working on my own with great friends and family. I have seen a psychologist on and off for the last few years for some anxiety, but nothing like this, nothing debilitating, just some mild anxiety around social things.
I so desperately want my life back. The way I feel right now is so debilitating. I don't want to do anything while at the same time I hate just sitting here with this anxiety. Plus I can't stop thinking about how normal I was before, just a few weeks ago. How did this happen? Will it ever get any better?
Just introducing myself and looking for support or advice.