Long time no see, I've been doing really really well with my HA and not had an actual episode since August. I had a panic attack or two since then, but I've been doing really well! I stopped visiting the site after awhile because I didn't want to trigger anything.
I'm feeling upset today, I had a hair follicle or cyst or something on my labia that I prodded at, and now today there is swelling and soreness across that area of my vulva and outer labia. It's inflamed and sore. Admittedly I did two things:
1. I googled.
2. I poked and prodded it.
The good news is the googling didn't turn up a single thing that could be construed as a major health crisis, all point to easily treatable or minor things. I exercise a lot, so could be just inflammation and irritation. There's also the fact I had squeezed a hair follicle or something and now there's swelling, meaning it's probably just a local infection or whatever.
Obviously the more I look at it the worse it seems. I am trying hard not to do the "where are the lymph nodes, why is that sore what is that" thing. I poked it until some things hurt.
Years ago I woke up with some very scary looking swelling on my face. Eye swollen shut, top lip so swollen on one side it was drooping over my bottom lip. I was startled, but I took some aspirin and went to work! The swelling was gone by the time I got there, and I shrugged and carried on. How I wish I could go back to that "wait and see" attitude!
Now I feel upset and teary. I want to cry, because I feel scared.
I've made a course of action, I soaked in some warm water, washed carefully, am wearing clean clothes and I took an anti-inflammatory. If it gets worse or doesn't go away I'll go see my Doc. tomorrow.
The good news is I guess unlike other HA episodes this one has actual verified symptoms, not like all the dying I said I was doing 18 months ago :)
But even so. I hate hate hate my response to it.