Even though I tell my anxiety often how much I hate it and want it gone, I know it has taught me a lot. Especially over this past year.
It has taught me just how strong I am. When I look back I can't believe everything I have gone through. If I had known what was ahead before all of this I would have given up then and there.
I have always been a spiritual person, but anxiety has truly allowed me to turn towards my spiritual side on a much deeper level.
Positive quotes and prayer have helped me in so many ways, and I know they will be a big part of the rest of my life.
I have met so many great people on this site, and online who are going through some sort of anxiety disorder.
My relationship with them has become closer than that of any of my family, friends who aren't online.
I have learnt so much from them, and I know the relationships I have formed will also be part of me forever :)
I have a new found appreciation for life, that no one could possibly have unless they have been through something lifechanging.
Back then, a good day for me would be spending time with friends, spending money, having fun.
A good day for me now, is being able to go for a walk around the block with my panic at a minimum, to be able to go somewhere without taking a benzo, or to be able to be able to pull myself out of scary, negative thoughts and depression and feel a glimpse of hope and positivity about the future.
When I overcome my disorder, and learn to control my anxiety, it will be the little things I will cherish in life. Fresh air, true friends, laughter, smiling, there's so many things I took for granted before.
Overall, though my anxiety has been the most horrible, dark, scary thing I have had to go through in my life, I will always be grateful for all the lessons it has taught me, and everything I have gained from it.