HI tasticake. I wrote a nice post for you this morning and just before I pushed send, our power flashed. AAAAACCCCCKKKK. Then my 12yr old wanted a mom and daughter shopfest so.....
First I want to say I understand you having all of these fears. Everybody here has them. the good thing that the fears are 99% of the time unfounded OR if there is something going on, it isn't anything truly tragic.
So having said all of that
So, I have been to the neurologist a few weeks ago. He did a couple of quick tests with me to see if my motor skills and brain was functioning as it should. I passed them all. He looked at a recent CT scan of my brain and it was normal. He wasn't concerned
This is excellent!! You've had a neuro check you out and you are good to go. Now to get you to believe it.
I know the 'quick tests' seem kind of like a nothing to a lay person, but to a neuro they tell a whole bunch of stuff. My daughters' (and my neuro) explained to me what reflexes actually tell them. And WOW, amazing. Neuros' look at CTscans all of the time. They know a bad result from a good one. And yours was normal.
My dad's malginant brain tumor was dx'd in the 1970's with a CTscan. My sister's benign tumor was dx'd by a CTscan in Aug '08. It is a good diagnostic tool. And you know all of those 'quick neuro tests'? My father and sister both 'failed' them. In other words those tests told the doctors' right away that something was amiss.
My neck was stiff. He said that I was probably having a tesion headache. Pain medicine does not seem to work!!! My head hurts all around the sides, on the temples, on my face, from my shoulders and neck and up. I'm so scared that it's an aneurysm and will rupture at any moment...or I'm thinking it could be a brain tumor. My eyes feel tired sometimes when I get nauseous
Your neuro is right. My son was horseplaying in January and stiffened up his neck. He neglected to stretch it out because it hurt. After 2wks he started getting headaches. We did all of the doc stuff, including our neuro. His headaches were in his temple area, caused visual disturbances, nausea and trouble dealing with sound. Neuro said it was due to the tense muscles in his neck and shoulders. We gave him aleve and alternated it with 3 advil (per doc instruction), and the headache hung on. It lasted a week. Once he finally gutted it out and started stretching out the tense muscles and miraculously the headache went away. My father and sister may have had headaches now and again, but there real issues were waaaaaay more involved than a headache. They had substantial deficits in other areas.
When I've had headaches due to somatic anxiety (like you are experiencing now), advil and like don't knock them out. It's because the headache is caused by my mind not an organic reason. Honestly I've taken pain meds for some headaches that just don't go away. When that happens, it is my clue that it is an anxiety induced headache.
Anuerysms---because you fear it doesn't mean you have one. Once you have the anuersym headache, in short order you are passing out. If your headache is hanging on and your are still conscious, I'd take the anuerysm thought out of your head.
I talked with my therapist today and she discussed some ways for me to calm down and relax but I'm too anxious to even attempt to. *sad face* My neck feels tense and stiff, and I feel sick to my stomach, like I'm about to vomit. What is wrong with me??? I'm so scared
What's wrong is your BEASTY is playing you. You are having a tough time with it for sure, but it is still your anxiety that is mucking with you. Once you can logically and emotionally accept/grasp/believe it, you'll start to feel better. Your therapist gave you some tips to help you. If you are too scared to attempt them, then your BEASTY is going to get the better of you. You are giving the anxiety the power. Don't let your fear run you over. Try the some of the techniques your therapist gave you. It will not be an instanteous thing. It will take time---minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. It takes patience, but most of all it takes a leap of faith. You can do it. Take a chance.