WARNING; THIS IS EXTREMELY LONG:
Just like many of you here, my anxiety/panic came from nowehere. I had never heard of anxiety before in my life and had no idea what was happening when I had my first panic attack. It just happened and I panicked, went to the ER, etc. etc. etc. (we ALL know the routine) So because something like this had never happened to me before, I automatically assumed that something MUST be wrong with me for me to react this way, however after countless tests and doctors visits I realized that I was perfectly fine. How could this be? I wondered. This general wonder turned into an everyday obsession with my health. In my mind I absolutely just couldn’t be healthy, not after feeling what I felt during that attack, so every single twitch, pain, ache that my body had I thought that something was wrong. I was developing the dreaded health anxiety….ugh. Eventually, my worrying turned into very real physical symptoms, headaches, shaking, sharp head pains, muscle twitches and aches, facial hurting and numbness, hand and finger numbness/tingling, derealization, and just an overall nervous feeling. Yet, when I went to the doctor I was still FINE! Doctors looked at me with smirks like “What is wrong with this woman?” and I felt ashamed for feeling this way. When in reality they just didn’t understand how hard it was to control. I didn’t want to be sitting in a doctors office scared and afraid who would choose that? I wanted to be out enjoying life and being the person I used to be! It was then that I realized that I had to help MYSELF… I realized that family, friends, and doctors are great but can only do but so much, life goes on, and I had to pick myself up and realize, Hey I’m healthy! Let me appreciate that and be happy about it before something serious really does happen and I have a real reason to be upset. This started in April 2013 and now 8 months later I can say that I truly feel like I’m on the road to recovery. I’ve never taken any medication so I will share with you all the things that have greatly helped me in hopes that I may be able to help someone else who may be struggling…..The main things that seemed to help me was (1.) Prayer and remembering that God didn’t create us to have the spirit of fear, he made us in HIS image. (2.) Constant self talks, (3.) loads of REST, atleast 9 hours a night, and (4.) Drinking a magnesium supplement called Natural Calm which can be found at any health food store. This drink seriously worked wonders! (5.) Exercise. These things have helped immensely to the point that the only time I feel slightly anxious is during the time before my period (sorry tmi) but that used to happen even before all of this started. My self talks consisted of me just telling myself to calm down, everything is fine. I tell myself “Remember when these symptoms happened before? Did anything happen? No? Alright well nothing is going to happen this time either” And I would try and do something to take my mind off of what I was feeling and sure enough whatever I was feeling would disappear. Anxiety is truly a mind over matter situation. Even though I’m not anxious anymore, I still get physical symptoms and I realize hey it took me about 5 months for these symptoms to appear so I can only assume that it will take that time for them to go away. And I also notice that when I give these symptoms the attention they so desperately want, they get worse! However, when I’m just like “eh okay a muscle twitch blah”, it goes away. Anxiety is like a monster, that disguises itself in as many creative ways as possible. Its like oh so youre not scared anymore? Well ah-ha I shall turn into another symptom! Lol it seems like its never ending when in reality IT IS! We can do THIS! Even if you don’t believe it, just tell yourself that you’re okay and then your mind will start to believe it. Hopefully this post will help atleast one person in some way and give you the encouragement, courage, and coping skills you need to get through this! LIVE,LAUGH,AND LOVE!